juvenile extermination

have i ever (never) grown past that?

sitting in the stairwell

hiding under bleachers

behind burning buildings, and metaphorically crashed cars 

i found bugs and those who loved

myself, alone, in the dirt

an EXoskeletal INtrovert 

buzzing headphones, sweat down my back

losing my grip (am i a hack?)

failing scores, and tailing-doves

i who love, dishonest hugs

a lightbulb in a dryer drum

the beetles all begin to hum

thrumming from inside my skull

millipedes _____ feeling full

lightning never striking twice

its struck three times all my life

(luck for the unlucky is a comedy)

 

not here

flowing mercurial

surrounded in the sky

my heart falls onto the path

ignorant passersby 

see you over the oceans seperation

local love and, local anesthesia

fallout rain, and kisses soft

touch me, hold their flames aloft

butane burning, scorching smell

oh, by god, youre just as well

killed a ghost, killed a future

pale dull skin, the ladder of veins 

the latter of it, invisibly scarred

i drop to the floor, and search for my heart

but she is not there

SHES NOT THERE ANYMORE

faded to dust, killed as i must've

forgotten her somewhere, and left her alone

wanting for something, but i'll always know

that the inside of me, IT WAS NEVER HER HOME