obsesssssive

obsessive starts lead to boring ends

incessant blurts of information 

shivers up skin at response 

what are you doing this for?

dopamine crescendo gets you high

the complete lack gets you crushed by

over infatuated 

un recompensated 

cruised through words 

the downing of birds

its cute in a way

on the dirty curb

until you do not speak 

lips meet smoke 

and his chest beats weak

you hope for more and pitter patter hearts

yearn and groan for butchering of parts

teeth meet pavement 

hand meets ass

thick skin 

is it worth breakin?

au contraire

"weird dog there," he says.

"lol, it's nothing, i neglect to mention him anyways," they say, with my leash dangling off their wrist.

it's such a passé thing, a pet, a lover,

and each of them know they could find another.

bile, jealousy, acting out, chewing on your shoes

sometimes i wonder if you ever knew-

fast forward, flashback,

misconstrued words, and minor heart attacks.

i was a shithead then, all bark, couldn't bite,

vowed to never be that animal again, i'll,

scratch and claw and burn inside,

watching you from where i hide.

you deserve friends and adoration, 

jokes and exclamations,

but i will remain, a shaking tender beast, 

tired from the noise, sleeping at your feet.

burning flesh & sweat & chlorine

coughing fits like shards of glass

and breaths of air that never last

escapes from shells bubbles jars

fleeting thoughts walks in front of cars

have i had a tragedy more pure 

than futile ruminations on my own cure

for flesh and bone are built to last

the grey matter of my brain holds my past

one garbled and fuzzed

years of misunderstanding

how to cope with a crash-landing

no black box no record of woe

some missing scars some broken toes

proof is all that i held dear

it slips further from me year by year

(un)holy love

pastries from the supermarket
sweetness in the void
they are like a blanket
over all the noise
bits and bytes and
crushed audio voice calls
see you in a thousand pixels
lest its deeper that i fall
an unlikely place
a short & tall pair
goals that i work toward

a tank full of air
my safety and my ward
oh for my consistency
i push onward

desrever

 yticirtcele eht raeh i rekcufrehtom

yticadua eht htiw kcuf ,em hguorht ninnur

nwod-d-d-d em nrut tndluohs uoy rekcufrehtom

dnuora uoy nrut annog m'i haey wow

noitautis eht ecrof

noitammusnoc eht ecrof

wonk uoy rekcufrehtom

noitalosnoc on sereht

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 !on !ho

uuuuuoy rof ezirp on

 !won !llew

oood annog ahctahw

!yrc !maercs

llllew sa tsuj sti

!yhw !dog

lmth ruoy ot tihs taht dda

nwod-d-d-d em nrut tndluohs uoy rekcufrehtom

dnuora uoy nrut annog m'i haey wow

noitautis eht ecrof

noitammusnoc eht ecrof

wonk uoy rekcufrehtom

noitalosnoc on sereht

haey